In which there wasn't much of a change, to be honest.

One thing that really surprised me about being engaged is how... normal everything feels. Which at first, really threw me. I guess I was expecting something more, something monumental in the moment where we were now ENGAGED. It is a rather huge agreement after all, to say that you agree to plan on spending the rest of your life with someone, no?

But I didn't feel it.

And to be honest, I felt like something was wrong with the engagement.

So here's a fun fact for you: I am a bit of a panicker. Not only that, but if I read about someone else having a problem, I worry about ME having that problem too (which is why I'm not allowed to read advice columns anymore). Picture it: I've read stories from women who've said yes and then immediately it just feels wrong, and they know in their heart that it was the wrong decision, they can't explain it they just KNOW it somehow, and then I get engaged, and... I don't feel anything. I don't feel anything, and I'm expecting to feel something. I mean I'm very happy with my decision, but there's been no monumental shift. Where is my monumental shift?? Does the lack of shift mean that this is the wrong decision somehow? PANIC PANIC.

You guys, I can be a ton of fun.

However, a few days in and once I'd stepped back and taken the time to think about it, it made sense, because really - what's changed? Nada. All we've done is agreed to do something. Something in my heart I've agreed to do for the last 3 years. We haven't actually done anything, as of yet.

What I am feeling, however, is super excited to be married.

Which I think is just as it should be.

All is well.